Whats Been Going On

2009-01-07T12:43:00.000-08:00

I had a conversation with a friend today in my drama class while everyone else was working on a project. It was quite interesting. We talked about sins and what is the purpose in his life and alot of other things. And it was really eye opening. As you read my blog more and more you will find that I have a real heart for my school and have a passion to deep'n the spiritual longing for Christ in my school.

In the talk I saw how little people have been shown the difference between the Christian life and the regular secular life. Multiple times in the conversation the kid brought up the fact that he is just as happy as anyone else and doesn't really have the desire to live a life of significance. He felt as though all the Christians at the school were hating on him all the time and that people are just filled with rules and religion. Not only that but he had questions like, "What if we are wrong?" or "Who are we to tell others that we are right?"

It wasn't discouraging, but for some reason i just felt as if that was the general attitude of alot of kids in the school I'm in, because the majority of the kids at Caldwell emulate that same kind of life style and think of Christianity and God in the same light. I think that its ironic how at Caldwell we educate the students so much on theology and God and all things spiritual, but basic questions of faith still live in the hearts of so many of the older kids in the school.

Over the past couple of months at school I have made a point to observe kids as much as I can. Both the spiritual leaders and the non-seeking. What surprised me the most was the lack of boldness that the spiritual leaders have, including myself. All throughout the bible we see people of spectacular faith and that hold on with their life to the promises of God. They were so bold and so radical and so out there, that there was no question as to what their agenda was, and God always seemed to take great joy in them and have the prosper in whatever they tried.

In alot of ways this is exactly what God has been calling me to do. About a year ago someone said that they had a "word of knowledge" [which is biblical] over my life, and throughout my life I have heard this saying repeated over me... "Mitchell, God has set you apart."

Im now in my last year of High School and God has, over time, put a very strong yearning in my heart to become truly set apart, not that I am better than anyone, that's the last thing I think of myself. But I want to be bold and not hesitate to live abundantly through the promises of God. I desire to truly want the spirit of the Lord more than anything else. I truly want to see kids come to Christ and raise up leaders better than myself, and I truly want to live so radical a life that Christ couldent help but to shine through me wherever I go. I want live a life in such a way as to destroy the thought that its o.k. to live a life thats not significant and one that shuts down the thought that Christians are full of rules rather than abundant love.

So I this is alot of what my prayers are sounding like lately. [And for some reason God has really enabled my to passionately say these prayers out loud, full of faith and boldness. And i mean like yell these suckers out and jump and weep before the Lord.]

God I pray that you deepen the passion inside of my heart. Lord set me apart for your kingdom. Hear my spirit, HEAR IT! God I want to see your kingdom come down in a powerful way! God if you would bless me in using me to accomplish that purpose. Your word says that your eyes wonder about the Earth looking for those who would honor you, and I declare that I want to be one of those, would you help me to become like that! I want my life to make a difference, i want it to drive people to the cross, and to bring about tears of repentance and joy. You tell me in the psalms that those who sow with tears and sadness will reap with songs of joy. Lord see my tears and hear my cry, i want to be a light in my school that shapes the way people think. Lord, hear my plea to you! God the joy you bring into my life is so abundantly more than i could ever ask for and i pray that you would help me to never abandon it for another. Let this love increase for you, let it spread and sweep over all those who come in contact with me. I want to see people healed and the name of Christ uplifted, I want to encourage the brothers and sisters in Christ around me and see the face of God growing in the hearts of others. Lord you tell me that you have given me a spirit not of fear but a spirit of power, love and forgiveness! Let me bring out that spirit in full. What would you have me do?! I would do it when you make it clear to me. Take me to my depths, but only if i will meet you there, send me out wherever you would have me, only if you go with me. Lord i want more, much more than i have now. Holy spirit i invite you inside of me daily and ask that you would make war with my flesh and destroy it. Lord would you please come in and wreck [in a good way] my life for your cause. Do what you have to do to make me into the man you want me to be. Lord I pray that you start to bind up the tendency to fear the judgement of man. Lord take away my hesitation, make me bold for your names sake. Bring me down and let me have a broken and contrite heart before you, never allow me to become proud, you resist them, but make the all humble. I'M ABOUT TO RISE UP.

Amen, Come Lord Jesus

AMEN!

Anyways I know that was long so ima end with this.

I'm going to start living in a way that is a whole lot more bold, not offensive bold, but loving bold. A boldness that truly acts on the promises of God for what they really are. And I hope that through this kind of life style that God would use me to destroy the spiritual death so many live in.

Peace out baby.

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